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A gift

We have four bio kids. We only have one bio son "Q". He is our oldest. He is brilliantly smart. In fact, I often marvel at where this genius comes from. We tease that he must have  got the very best of my dear hubby and I . He also received both of our stubbornness. Ha

It's safe to say that Q is spoiled being the only boy. He will have to share his room which he isn't to sure about. This is just one of the many sacrifices and adjustments Q will have to go through.

I dearly want for him to know the love of brothers. I think because I was the only girl growing up, I knew I missed out on true sister hood. (Although, I have many women in my life I think of sisters) I don't want him to miss out on brotherhood. My prayer for Q and  our little Chinese son is that they will bond and fill a missing part of each others life. That they will learn together , love together and maybe get into a little mischief together. Just a little.


I have most definitely been worried about what Q is really thinking. He is no longer a tiny little boy who comes to his Momma and tells her everything.
Tonight, I had the privilege of hearing Q's sweet prayer. As I listened to him talk to his heavenly father I felt peace. Q prayed for His brother to come home soon and that they would get along. Tears flowed freely down my cheeks. This was a gift for me from my heavenly father.
Will things be perfect when our Chinese son comes home. I highly doubt it! We are not perfect people but with lots of prayer, patience, and love we will be okay.

The Adoption RollerCoaster Ride

I am on it! I have to admit that Monday and Tuesday I was an absolute wreck! 

First of all, adopting women still get (kind of pregnant) hormones! Just take my word for it!  If you don't believe me, I'm sure Dear Hubby will be happy to complain...I mean tell you all about it.

Second, That little fellow who's growing in my heart had or is having his birthday. That's hard on a momma's heart. I can't help but wonder if his birthday will be acknowledged in any way. I do think his orphanage is known to have good nannies. So that is a relief.  But birthdays, I'm sure are rarely celebrated.

Third, I can't talk about him to very many people. I like to talk. I like to talk about my children. He's one of them. Some of my favorite people don't know we are adopting yet. So that's a double whammy.

But since I'm on the rollercoaster ride. The blubbering stopped abruptly  at 10:39 a.m. today.  We have PA! For those who don't know, PA stands for pre-approval. Basically, China  says we are pre-approved to adopt our little guy. This is pretty much the first step (in about 15) in this long process. I have already filled out 20 plus papers and yup we are just starting.

But PA makes me so happy! That means he is ours. Until now, someone who was further in the process could have taken him. (For lack of better words.) My heart would already break if that would have happened. 

So he is ours. Happy! Happy!  Happy birthday to our little son! We are coming slow but sure.

A Son

I woke up this morning to three little ones yelling in unison, "Mommy and Daddy wake up it's Easter day!" As I lay there wrapping my tired brain around the fact that it was indeed Easter morning I listened to the birds singing. My littlest was fast asleep in between Shane and I. I snuggled her closer to me and listened to Shane snoring along with the birds. I could tell it was going to be a beautiful day!

We have always made our little ones come and get us before running to see what the Easter bunny /or Santa has brought them. Today wasn't any different. I like to be ahead of the kids so I can capture that moment of complete happiness on their darling little faces. If you don't already do this you are most definitely missing out.

The children dug into their baskets with glee. The girls trying out their new bonnets and Q was terribly happy for his Gorilla snot hair gel. Ha

Lydia Rose our littlest one was much more into everyone else's basket then her own. We all laughed as she toddled from basket to basket to explore.

I couldn't help but think of another little one all the way around the world who might night get to toddle around outside his crib, let alone look inside baskets. Who woke up this morning not knowing it was Easter.  Not knowing that his Momma and Baba were loving and missing him before we've even met him. Not knowing that the Easter bunny left him a basket in our home. Not knowing that he is a prince. That he has a heavenly father who loves Him too.

That's right. We are adopting!

 I can't tell you a whole lot right now. I will tell you it all eventually. I can tell you he is in China. Despite seeing 100's of little orphan's faces, when I saw this little face, I knew God had chosen this little fellow for us. He is beautiful, in our opinion,  and special. We will be blessed to call him son (ai tz) and brother (didi). Not the other way around.

Until he comes home...I am thankful to know heavenly father is watching over him. I'm very thankful for a father in heaven who gave his own son to save us all so long ago.