Part San (3)

AS I said, the seed had been forgotten...

Life seemed really pretty and perfect. Three healthy beautiful kids. Life moved on. We moved on. We sold our house and built a new one. We were busy growing three kids.

We were busy cleaning up Lilli's messes. Lilli's messes were and are notorious! From a whole jug of milk on the floor to a whole brand new bottle of lotion on her head. ( Don't tell... but I kind of miss those messes.) I'm very prejudice but just look at their pictures. Aren't they precious?!? So cute!

A few years went by fast. I found my self thinking... Shane found himself hearing... words he wasn't so sure he wanted to hear.  Haha  Maybe... we should have one more... Six months later we were pregnant. 

We announce it to our family at 11 1/2 weeks. A week later...

I lost the baby.

Then I lost another.

Then I lost a third.

And the third loss was uhh... event full.  I hemorrhaged and past out from the loss of blood in the hospital lobby. Oopse... I gave Shane quite a fright and I'm sure I embarrassed him too. Poor Shane.

Maybe we really did have enough kids or maybe we should adopt like My brother and sister in-law. (The seed was back!)

We prayed. Should we have more kids. The answer was yes! 

We prayed about adopting. My brother showed us that adoption was doable! They were a family similar to us. They had three bio kids just like us. Granted, they were working their tails off to get the funds. But,  I was excited! Maybe this was God's plan for us too.
We prayed about it and we were told, "NO."