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A gift

We have four bio kids. We only have one bio son "Q". He is our oldest. He is brilliantly smart. In fact, I often marvel at where this genius comes from. We tease that he must have  got the very best of my dear hubby and I . He also received both of our stubbornness. Ha

It's safe to say that Q is spoiled being the only boy. He will have to share his room which he isn't to sure about. This is just one of the many sacrifices and adjustments Q will have to go through.

I dearly want for him to know the love of brothers. I think because I was the only girl growing up, I knew I missed out on true sister hood. (Although, I have many women in my life I think of sisters) I don't want him to miss out on brotherhood. My prayer for Q and  our little Chinese son is that they will bond and fill a missing part of each others life. That they will learn together , love together and maybe get into a little mischief together. Just a little.


I have most definitely been worried about what Q is really thinking. He is no longer a tiny little boy who comes to his Momma and tells her everything.
Tonight, I had the privilege of hearing Q's sweet prayer. As I listened to him talk to his heavenly father I felt peace. Q prayed for His brother to come home soon and that they would get along. Tears flowed freely down my cheeks. This was a gift for me from my heavenly father.
Will things be perfect when our Chinese son comes home. I highly doubt it! We are not perfect people but with lots of prayer, patience, and love we will be okay.

The Adoption RollerCoaster Ride

I am on it! I have to admit that Monday and Tuesday I was an absolute wreck! 

First of all, adopting women still get (kind of pregnant) hormones! Just take my word for it!  If you don't believe me, I'm sure Dear Hubby will be happy to complain...I mean tell you all about it.

Second, That little fellow who's growing in my heart had or is having his birthday. That's hard on a momma's heart. I can't help but wonder if his birthday will be acknowledged in any way. I do think his orphanage is known to have good nannies. So that is a relief.  But birthdays, I'm sure are rarely celebrated.

Third, I can't talk about him to very many people. I like to talk. I like to talk about my children. He's one of them. Some of my favorite people don't know we are adopting yet. So that's a double whammy.

But since I'm on the rollercoaster ride. The blubbering stopped abruptly  at 10:39 a.m. today.  We have PA! For those who don't know, PA stands for pre-approval. Basically, China  says we are pre-approved to adopt our little guy. This is pretty much the first step (in about 15) in this long process. I have already filled out 20 plus papers and yup we are just starting.

But PA makes me so happy! That means he is ours. Until now, someone who was further in the process could have taken him. (For lack of better words.) My heart would already break if that would have happened. 

So he is ours. Happy! Happy!  Happy birthday to our little son! We are coming slow but sure.